This week has flown by! It’s amazing how fast it went by me. I have been very busy this week. Everyday seems to be a rerun I cannot get out of. However, I don’t mind…
As I have already stated, I have been very busy this week. I am exhausted and stressed. I try to smile, nonetheless. As I came home more and more exhausted each day it became harder for me to read my Bible.
I read in Korean, which takes more concentration than the English version…the Korean Bible uses old Korean, with difficult language. Thus, my sleep often overcame my will to read.
This made me feel awful. I felt like I was being a hypocrite every time I asked God for help. I went to church Wednesday and I realized something as I read Isaiah. It said that God understands all things. God understands that I am tired. He always understood. God also loves me. Isaiah also says You are precious and I love you. I really felt and know God was speaking to me through the Bible. He loves me and this realization was the best thing that happened to me this week.
8/17/2007, 4th block
Intersperced throughout my time at home this summer have been walks down memory lane, or glances over writings from the past. I will share some occasionally, mostly because they are usually entertaining and always embarrassing, often indicate that some things never change, are a welcome relief that one has grown and matured some over time and perhaps, provide a humbling sensation to type something up verbatim and wince at the errors.
This particular excerpt comes not from my daily journal (in which I have written since age 6–who knows what I might find there), but from my band folder. Each week we had a prompt we responded to for at least one page (it was part of the schoolwide writing curriculum–my band director was not happy and judging by the grand total of two entries in the folder, I’m guessing that it was one of those things that faded out of existence as the semester progressed. I’m suspicious that anyone ever read my two entries save myself.). The prompt was “The Best Thing that Happened to Me This Week.”
If the best thing that happened to me that week four years ago was re-realizing that God sees my heart and loves me flaws and all, perhaps the best thing this week is also realizing that God is not confined to my “free time.” That I can fellowship with him all the time, even after the time that I set aside to spend exclusively with him.
For the Bible says,
Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass. -Ps. 37:4-5
This isn’t about God giving us what we want, or justifying what we do for ourselves since God “sees our heart.” It’s about aligning our deepest desires with God. Delighting in the Lord is not locking oneself away from the world–it begins with rejoicing in the kingdom of heaven and the restoration project that began when Jesus resurrected from the tomb. It’s not about your, my, our plan or agenda–but when it’s about God’s, it’s about all of us.
What’s the best thing that happened to you this week?
But then again, you’re right. It’s only Tuesday.